'A Wish to Grow' was introduced to me in this past year of my life. A year that both challenged me & uplifted me. A year that pushed me down into the dirt & nurtured me into growth. It was indeed a year I did not see coming & it hit me like a mack truck. It was the beginning of a transformation I didn't realize I had signed up for. It was the beginning of a growth I'd never known. Yes, it started in the worst way I could imagine. But I could not have come this far without first learning to surrender.
While this blog will tell of the journey that has brought me here (& the journey to come), 'A Wish To Grow' came to me in the middle of the journey. So, to explain the title of my blog, I must jump ahead. Past the spiral down, past the surrender, past the work...but I will come back to it.
In the middle of a small yoga studio in Chicago, I learned of 'A Wish to Grow' while in meditation class. It's quite simple really & something I am shocked isn't given to every child as they grow up. It should be something we embrace, encourage & enliven in our youth. The wish to grow is something that exists in all of us. It is a small little pocket of energy. One that when woken up becomes large. Inside each of us we have not only potential to grow but a desire to do so.
In our culture, it seems we only encourage certain types of growth. Growth in ways society has deemed acceptable. We do not ask ourselves what our deepest wishes are, the many ways we can grow as people.
So take a moment. Close your eyes. & feel your wish to grow. If you feel so moved, repeat 'I wish to grow' as you breathe. Find where your wish to grow lives. Mine lives in two places-my heart & my feet. Much of my own personal wish to grow revolves around passions I have & adventures I want to partake in~thus, heart & feet make sense. However, I did not decide this. I FOUND this. I let myself be led to my wish to grow. I simply let go, surrendered & my wish to grow appeared. And as I gave my energy to this wish, it grew. It grew beyond what I thought was possible.
Now, when I did this, I had already had quite a bit of experience with surrendering (as you'll see in my story to come). So I was able to let go of myself, my controls, my hang-ups, my blahs & really find that place inside myself. Had I looked for it before this, I may not have found it. I surely couldn't find that place as I spiraled down, as I let myself fall apart to begin again. It just wouldn't have been possible.
So, perhaps you're ready to find your wish to grow. Maybe not. It's part of the journey. & it's definitely not the first step. However, I felt this blog must start with an overview of sorts. Because while I may not have been able to sense my wish to grow in the very beginning of this journey, I am now certain that it was indeed my WISH TO GROW that was nagging at me for so long, what was pushing me to my breaking point. Yes, my wish to grow needed to till the soil first in order to plant itself right in the heart (& feet) of my being.
So here it comes. My story. One that millions have been through. One that seems easy compared to some people's journey. Nonetheless, it is worth telling. I know this because of how I've changed. I know this because it's possible. I know it's worth telling because it's life. And in that, we're all the same. You may find moments of your own journey embedded in mine. & maybe you'll have branches of your wish to grow that are so uniquely yours, I won't tell anything even close. I can say this however. Let yourself surrender. Open your heart. Empty your cup. And consciously begin your journey today.
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